i'm screwed

2011-06-30T13:51:00.002+08:00

i need to decide what kind of person i want to be. but i really dont know.

i need an answer.

i am certainly NOT ok.

2011-05-03T23:30:00.002+08:00

And thats why we need opposition.

Read http://mrwangsaysso.blogspot.com/ (recommended by stevie)

Sometimes, we just need more than one opinion.

2011-03-07T22:53:00.000+08:00

i feel like crying because my cactus is dying :'(

2011-03-06T02:16:00.003+08:00

I have to blog about this.

So i was talking to L and suddenly i raised this super depressing topic.

Immediately L said, I'm tired, going to sleep now bye!

Wah, I stun, seriously.

I MUST learn to use this i-wanna-sleep technique too before someone pours his/her troubles to me and I end up not knowing what to say in return. I'm sure you have been stuck in a situation where you know nothing you say is going to help, yet you cannot remain silent and keep the conversation hanging.

So the best way, go to bed before shit happens :D

Goodnight!

2011-02-16T15:22:00.001+08:00

伤口虽愈合了

但遗留下来的疤

依然挥之不去

那条疤

回忆起磨灭不了的过错

掀开了不堪回首的过去

无论怎么擦，也擦不掉

它，注定缠绕这你了。

2011-02-05T23:14:00.004+08:00

about putting a value to love.

mind you, they're in pounds :O

2011-01-23T23:14:00.003+08:00

and so i have a tumblr, but did not close my blogger.

"when someone texts you, and that the someone is damn ugly, you always feel the urge to wanna end the conversation. but when the person texts you persistently, you'll feel like he or she is a pain in the ass.

but when someone good-looking keeps texting you, no matter how many times it is, you wont feel that he or she is a bugger. instead, you feel like wanting to extend the conversation!" by bimbo and gold hair.

we live in a superficial world. when people say looks are not important, its either they're deceiving themselves, or they're attempting to deceive others. grow them a pimple on their face and they'll come up with a thousand and one ways to cover it up. because, first impressions are always affected by appearance! oh he looks like a criminal, oh she looks so fat, oh she's so pretty.

our mind formulates its very own biased, yes biased, impression of someone the first time we see him. the best example? selecting your seat on the bus. just assume that you have just boarded a bus and all that are left are single seats. your mind intuitively helps you decide where you should seat. wah she's so pretty, let me sit next to her. omg he's scratching his hair, so gross, i should not sit next to him.

be glad if someone sits next to you on the bus, he or she probably has a near positive first impression ~~of your looks~~.

mind-blowingly explosive.

2011-01-20T22:18:00.007+08:00

you'll never guess it right

2011-01-07T22:31:00.001+08:00

i'm not a spare tyre.

go fuck yourself.

2011-01-05T22:55:00.001+08:00

i think i just found out the name that i officially detest THE most.

i'm telling no one, cause that name could just be yours (:

2010-12-29T20:56:00.008+08:00

these pictures do speak for themselves.

2010-12-12T20:48:00.002+08:00

just when i told my friend how good my mom was as she doesnt fiddle with my things unlike other moms, to my horror, i returned to my room and went - where da fuck has all my stuff gone to?!

2010-12-07T23:13:00.002+08:00

wahhhhhhhhhhh. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

okay i just needed to get that out from my chest.

but i'm still thinking about that in disbelief.

like seriously?

haha.

2010-11-25T00:19:00.003+08:00

i was like a lost moon - my planet destroyed in some cataclysmic, disaster-movie scenario of desolation, that continued nevertheless, to circle in a tight little orbit around the empty space left behind, ignoring the laws of gravity.

2010-11-15T22:05:00.003+08:00

oh i have a blog!

yes i admit, i kinda forgot about this place, until someone reminded me that there should be some updates.

life after ORD has been....chaotic. yes, you probably would be thinking that i would use words like 'wonderful', or 'free', but no, its been chaotic. but i enjoyed it.

i will never forget all the fun, laughter, joy and endless stories. i feel loved and i love everyone (:

sometimes, its really not about money, but the people around you, the environment, you know, all the intangibles. a friend once told me that he wants to search for a job which fills up his 'happiness bottle' more than his pocket, now i can relate to that.

its not the end; its has just begun.

yup, that sums it up.

on the other note, i am going to resign tomorrow. i sincerely hope they can release me. you must be wondering, which idiot would beg for retrenchment? hell yeah, me. i will tweet if i'm unemployed tomorrow, and i would be very happy to :P

2010-11-03T13:58:00.005+08:00

i havent signed in for so long, blogger logged me out from my browser. almost forgot my password when i logged in. haha.

okay, like what i've said, today's the last day that i can enjoy benefits (if any) from holding on to the green card. (oh you would be surprised at what the card can give us.) from tomorrow onwards, this green card will be rendered invalid. goodbye Green and hello Pink!

okay, if up till now you still have no idea what i'm talking about, then you're a nubcake.

isnt it ironic that i actually cant bear to leave my current working environment now when all along i was counting down to finishing my term of service? (no, that doesnt mean i will extend :D) like what Boss said, you cant bear to leave something because you know very well that you have left behind a system that you hope people can follow, and you wouldnt want it to die off just because of your departure. sometimes, you have to trust the person who takes over your work, trust that he or she will pick up from what was left, and trust that his lackadaisicalness doesnt get the better of him. yes, trust; the basic building block of human relationship. to which i just watched a movie The Incite Mill which revolves around 'trust'. good movie go watch it.

okay i digressed.

i guess my perspective is pretty different from other guys who chiong sua every day. instead of fighting a real war, i fight an office war. i once heard an office joke - nowadays educated people dont fight anymore, they go to the computer and they start shooting emails. haha. yes, dont ever belittle the power of emails. they are swift and silent killers. they travel faster than you can catch them back, they need no ammunition to destroy and they can be told to the whole world through the CC or BCC function.

one more thing that i learnt. use your boss to pin against other bosses, especially if yours is a big fuck. it doesnt matter if your boss has been informed of it, just throw out his name and people will not question. there was once when my Boss asked - since when did i say that? haha no he did not, we just found it convenient and effective to put his name down so that people comply when they see your name. or when other bosses want you to do something for them, sorry, my boss wants me to complete this first. but in fact, well there is nothing to be done at all. hahaha. do not be a smart alex and do things for other people. i know this sounds very selfish but sometimes you just have to put on your protective suit from any potential arrows that could kill you.

enough said, i shall look forward to tomorrow.

2010-10-17T23:22:00.002+08:00

do people always have a hidden agenda when they plan to do something? you'll never be able to read someone else's mind. when you finally see his true colours, its probably too late. whats done cannot be undone. well, what can i say? this world is not as simple as you think it is. dont be too trustful of anyone around you. whats worse is that you have already become a victim yet you dont even realise it.

moral of the story? be a bitch. haha.

2010-10-15T23:43:00.002+08:00

Auditor asked "As the head of the department, dont you just feel very depressed that your branch couldnt perpetually meet the target for so many months ?"

Boss paused, and answered "No, i'm not depressed at all."

I burst out laughing.

Auditor stared at me.

Then he laughed (how real).

That was so ~~not~~ funny.

2010-10-10T23:22:00.004+08:00

alright, failed attempt to bake. HAHA. so no pictures uploaded. i tried to make chocolate fudge cake with a layer of jelly on top (you know, the type you always see in the bakery), but it didnt turn out...nice. yes it was tasty, albeit not very asthetically appealing.

okay, this is what i call standard. try harder next time.

i ~~think i~~ can cook, but baking? probably not my best forte.

what else should i be doing nowadays? coming up with a looooong list of things i want to do after this month. once again, i can smell liberation lingering in the air. i shall start drafting out my 'auf-wiedersehen email' which will be sent out on my last day. ooo cant wait to press send hahaha

one last thing, i completed my project! woohoo! it felt exactly the same as the day my last paper ended when the auditors left the room after the closing meeting last Fri. i'm glad everything went on fine, but why wouldnt it right? given my competence and capability, hahaha okay stop right there.

may the countdown begin.

2010-09-16T22:59:00.003+08:00

this is it. tomorrow, i will be presenting my fruit of labour. subsequently, for the next 3 weeks, i will be judged on how well i've done for the past few months. the painstaking efforts that i've put in, i hope they dont go to waste.

am i ready for it? seriously, i dont know. to be very honest my mind is so occupied with whats gonna happen tomorrow and i didnt really enjoy the day as i thought i should. i was this close to going back to work and prepare for tomorrow. thank you my dear colleagues for helping me out today! well i just hope everything turns out fine tomorrow.

please dont rain on my parade.

2010-09-16T14:29:00.001+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF :D

2 decades have gone by. its time i reflected upon my life.

2010-09-12T16:35:00.004+08:00

so the countdown starts. i have some much to do, so little time to complete. its like running a marathon, you're into the last leg of the race, yet the most arduous part. every cell in your body tells you to give up, but you hang on. cause once you finish it, you win.

你真的不用來我回憶裡微笑
我就不相信我會笨到忘不了
賴著不放掉人本來就寂寞的
借來的都該還掉
我總會把你戒掉

oh yes, this week is a super short week for me!:)

2010-08-25T14:57:00.002+08:00

seriously, what da hell was i thinking?

2010-08-25T14:33:00.004+08:00

noob finding of the day - i didnt know one can sweat out salt, like salt crystals! after the super shag 16km run this morning, i noticed once the sweat dried up, the skin became reflective (like edward cullen, lol) and when i touched it, they were salt crystals on the skin! maciam doing chemistry experiment hahahah. okay maybe all of yall already know about this fact, so i said its a very noob finding of the day! haha

my knee hurts like crazy. i probably have problems making my way down to buy stuff later.

i cant wait to return to studies! all the workload and stress is driving me crazy. usually once you approach your ord (yes i know its very soon!), you'll start to hand over your work to another person and your presence begins to fade off from the system. but for me, its the other way round. the closer i am to ord, the more things i have to do! yah yah papaya!

well i promise myself not to swear ~~so much~~ because me becoming a civilian soon means me becoming civilised :D

2010-08-21T19:02:00.002+08:00

if you want to set up light sensors, make sure they can sense your presence.

i'm in the office, perpetually in darkness cause the light sensor cannot sense my presence. so i've to keep moving around with exaggerated movements so that the light lights up. i tell you this is an amusing scene. initially, i'm probably a bit disturbed (by that, i mean scared cause its that month) when the light went off by itself but now i've come to the point when i'm annoyed. just imagine your remote control couldnt detect the tv and you have to do it manually.

that time i was alone in the toilet, doing my big business when the lights suddenly shut off automatically. damnit i swore right at the moment haha i bet you would too. it became a dark business and i dont even know if i've cleaned up properly hahaha you get what i mean.

technology has its flaws. or probably they should've just invested in better light sensors.

by the way, the BOS is the nicest one i've ever met! he drove to the cookhouse to make lunch and dinner deliveries so that we lazy bums dont have to walk there.

i've sat in front of this monitor since 8am. lawl. may next morning come asap.

i know next weekend isnt even near by i'm already looking forward to it!:D

2010-08-15T20:48:00.002+08:00

okay, frankly speaking, i really felt like i ORD already. the feeling of going to bed as early(2-3am) as you want, rousing from your slumber as late(12pm) as you want, is damn shiok ah. HAHA.

back to reality, 2.5months left.

2.5 frigging months. better not start countdown cause the more i think about it, the slower it feels like. shall just concentrate on working on my project.

2010-08-15T01:03:00.002+08:00

okay, i did my math and i found out that i spent close to $700 within this week.

zomg. i feel guilty spending so much money.

i shall go to bed and try not to think about this.

2010-07-30T10:45:00.007+08:00

wake up in the morning feeling ~~like p.diddy~~ like making breakfast for myself!

plain rosti, french toast and a cup of swiss miss chocolate - great way to start the morning. i know, my french toast looks a bit like tau guah and the rosti looks like roti prata here HAHAHA and i think i added a little too much oil/butter.

its a very wet morning. the rain woke me up cause it was too noisy. i heard Wendy's at Liat Towers is re-opening today. *stares at the window. hurhur, good luck to them (:

i regretted taking off today cause initially i took off so that i can skip certain things, but that cannot be carried out in wet weather so it was cancelled eventually...oh well. dont complain too much.

just renewed my playlist. i understand that its very irritating once the music plays by itself whenever you visit this page and you have to go click PAUSE hahahaha but i've already changed the settings to non-auto play but it doesnt seem to work very well!

omg only 2 more ann-dee-pees left! wheeee! let me do a breakdown of the next THREE frigging months. after ndp i'll have a block leave. then i'll countdown to my *coughs* birthday, then i'll finish up my huge-ass project at work, then i probably will need a month to clear all my leave/off. then its nov! guys, isnt this oh-so-exciting wahahaha.

a broken string.

both sides set off in opposite direction.

the taut that holds it together no longer exists.

can you attach it back?

off to have lunch! ikr, when you have nothing to do, you just eat to kill time.

2010-07-22T00:17:00.003+08:00

initially i was a little reluctant to take off this week cause there really isnt nothing much going on, both work and social life. (hints i'm very free this weekend haha!) but i guess its time i gave myself a short break after slogging for the past few weeks. And especially after today's meeting which bombarded my brain with a pile of even more new shit, i really need a kit-kat.

but its the WRONG week to be on off this week cause the whole world's so busy!

enough of ranting.

i had a Taiwan Porridge buffet dinner at Quality Hotel. i'm a sucker for buffets, but the aftermath of a eat-all-you-want meal? indigestion. i never fail to regret having eaten TOO much, despite knowing that i dont have a very strong digestive system. back to the buffet, i've no idea why its a Taiwan porridge buffet. first, i dont see how popiah and ice kacang is related to Taiwan. second, the porridge is neither famous nor delicious, and i only had half a bowl, haha. i guess its just their way of making the buffet sound cheaper. priced at only $11.80, you get a surprisingly large spread of food. being typical singaporeans, always attack the most expensive dish. i remembered i was once at a buffet salad bar and smoked salmon salad was one of the more expensive items available. i 'rummaged' through the whole tray but my search for salmon slices was unfortunately to no avail. i was so disappointed. how kind of some people to leave the greens behind and take away all the meat like hungry vultures.

anyways, if you're hungry and dont wish to burn a hole in your pocket, i recommend the above buffet.

NDP is coming! i can feel my weekends coming back wahahaha

2010-07-11T19:52:00.002+08:00

i knew this would happen. i shouldnt have said anything. and i'm fucking regretting it now. i brought all these upon myself so i have no one to blame but myself. damnit. i wanna put a bullet through my head.

2010-07-04T23:38:00.014+08:00

i'm so happy cause i bought 2 pints of Ben&Jerry's ice cream! :P

the only redeeming factor of being ~~forced~~ involved in NDP is that i can watch the rehearsals every week, and of course the live show on the actual day itself! the location i am at is very good for taking pictures.

fireworks. always the best part. thank you taxpayers. your tax literally bursts into flames hahahah.

night skyscrapers. who says singapore doesnt have beautiful night scenes? by the way, i really love this picture, dont you?

bronco. if i havent already told you, i drive this. no, not in this picture. i mean this is a picture of the vehicle i drive. it'd be on parade this year.

i was watching 星光传奇 (as you know i got my sunday nights back wahahaha!) and i feel that one of the best performances is 許仁杰's 一次幸福的機會. went to youtube to do a search and found out that 劉若英 sang this song too! 奶茶's new songs are pretty good. like, 我們沒有在一起 and 我不想念. they're all in my playlist now, yah i finally changed the songs. please listen to them, its worth checking out! 我不想念 is this week's 龙虎榜榜首!

或許不該再奢求　再怨什麼
世上的遺憾　本來就很多

哎。真的，很多。

2010-06-22T16:17:00.002+08:00

now guys dont tell me you didnt stare at your thumb, even for a slightest second. HAHA

YES i finally ~~downloaded~~ found the glee album! whee so gleeful :D cant wait for season 2 to play in September.

YES i finally enjoyed a long and good weekend after 2 weeks of working non-stop.

YES i finally watched She's Out of My League. Funny perverted show about this average joe who hooked up on this really hot girl. Not quite a suitable show for all the innocent souls out there. haha. now who wants to watch Toy Story in 3D?

YES 933 should totally pay me for promoting their station's slogan perpetually.

2010-06-12T18:35:00.005+08:00

i swear its goddamn boring to do duty on Saturdays. so its important to keep yourself entertained throughout the day. the entertainment that i've found today? its watching Buffetlicious on xinmsn.com. the buffet selections looks sooo gastronomic and i'm drooling watching the 2 pretty hosts savour their food. when the episode is over, i stare at the packet of cha-chai-fan from the cookhouse. damn, why must the standards differ so much!

what should i blog about todayy....

since i'm free now, i shall talk about my work environment. since none of my colleagues even know that i've a blog (i assume), i can well afford to be a little derisive.

my workplace - broken into many offices, lets just name them Office A, B, C, D, E, F. so in this way, i'm not breaching any security rules. if you hate to read a load of crap, i suggest you close this window now (:

Office A. This office contains the biggest and smallest people, literally. Mostly made up of AC boys. And a dumping ground for those who chao keng so badly and yet are successful in getting a downgrade. They mustve paid the profit-orientated doctors a hefty sum (remember i just mentioned they were from AC (: ) to get this done. Fyi, some of them can complete a 2.4 run within 9-min plus and i dare you challenge them. Because there're just so many of them, there probably isnt any job left for them to do! One enters the office and expects to see a huge congregation of them reading newspaper, and discussing seemingly intellectual topics like - i remember how to do integration and differentiation, do you? Yeah i know, they probably dont act/sound like typical AC guys.

Office B. We used to share the office with time but were unfortunately coerced to separate last year. They ended up on the losing end, getting a new office not bigger than 2 containers combined while we get to remain in the current SPACIOUS office. Mind you, not those classroom containers, but those small ones that are used to store goods in Keppel Bay. Ever since we separated, i never really talked to them. It was a lot more fun when we were together, like doing birthday rapes and locking the guy in a box while he struggles and screams for help and no one actually cares but just stands around and laugh at the poor fellow. Those were the good old days. But recently, they have an influx of clerks from i-dunno-where, so i alienate them altogether.

Office C, my office! Not to be cocky, but i would like to call the office the Elite Branch, heh. We have people from all top JCs in Singapore and my boss holds a master degree. We started out as the office which has the most complicated office-politics issues, so i always had to put on my shield when i work so that i can dodge arrows flying in my direction and protect myself from backstabs. You see, this happens when you put all the smart people together. But as time goes by, everyone knew each other better and we now live happily ever after. People claim that we enjoy the most welfare, but hello, we slogged our lungs out when you only worked your peabrain out.

Office D. Oh dear, they have so many people i dont even know their exact strength. Basically, if one doesnt belong to anywhere, he'd be thrown into this office. So i name it the Rojak Branch - a smorgasbord of race, religion, education background, personality and the list goes on. Unfortunately my best friend comes from this office, but he's exclusive la. They're capable of wrecking havoc in the building and i'm sure there are many stories to tell. The most important job they do? They have veto power in the distribution of stationery. So if you have no friends in there, sorry no printing paper for you if you've run out of any. Use toilet paper, albeit soft. But i never had to worry about not having enough paper for printing xD

Office E. They share such a close relationship with one another i heard they meet up on Saturdays AND Sundays. Goodness haven't you seen enough of each other on weekdays?! Like sleeping, eating, showering and working with someone isnt enough for you to get sick of him. Well...you get my point. But i like them the most, our office is cloest to them. They're friendly, approachable and cohesive. Did i mention that they're very close to one another? And by the way their ex-head loves to go Teo Heng too!

Let me see...have i forgotten anyone? Yes the F group! Hmm i dont interact with them ~~at all~~ since their workplace is approximately 2 frigging bus stops away from mine.

Okay, i think i just finished my longest post ever. Now you know more about my work environment! :D
1 hour of duty gone! Hehe.

Ciao!

2010-06-05T01:11:00.002+08:00

well i guess if you cant afford Dell Computers....this serves as a pretty good alternative.

the cheenas have done it again! ~~at producing imitation goods~~

initially i wanted to write a long and cynical post about my work environment, but i'm too tired to blog now. *yawns. another time perhaps.

my next long weekend is 2 weeks later. from now till then, its work non-stop again. (refers to a huge project that i'm tasked to do but i cant reveal it.)

the whole world is enjoying their holidays now. i am damn jealous la! haha. anyway if you have nothing to do, watch Glee! :D dont worry its not as childish as High School Musical. They cant show making-out scenes on Nickelodeon but they can on Star World, and the re-mixed songs and mash-ups are great hits.

sleeping now! zzzZ

2010-05-29T18:49:00.005+08:00

the news just showed how delirious people were to be able to be one of the first few customers to lay their hands on the iPad. Seriously (ridiculous), iSoAttractive meh? Haha speaking of which, i have yet to buy my iTouch. iNeed entertainment in camp, very badly. entertainment devices distract me from...external influences.

well if you havent been informed, ann-dee-pee rehearsals have commenced. and my weekends are gone. so please enjoy the ann-dee-pee parade. people sweat and bleed to put up the show. so just watch it, at least for this year.

i had a great weekend, stayover ftw! weeee love wiiii! hahaha. i didnt know playing wii can make you sweat so much. or maybe its just that the fan wasnt blowing in my direction. but it felt like a workout. hahaha. pics in facebook, lazy to upload.

is it just me or has the popularity of Blogger/blogging declined? more people are turning to twitter, tumblr for daily updates. people around me dont blog as often as they used to. sometimes i'm just lazy to type out chunks of my daily life into an entry. twitter, on the other hand, is so much faster. but sadly gladlyCast (lols at sadly gladly) doesnt work anymore!

so always bring along your camera and capture the great moments. 把瞬间的记忆变成永恒！

2010-05-18T19:14:00.000+08:00

:((

i hate this feeling.

2010-05-08T23:13:00.003+08:00

LOL.

2010-05-03T18:12:00.003+08:00

long weekend is over. the past few weeks have been pretty good, with a couple of OFFs here and there. i tell you army dudes love OFFs more than anything else.

tomorrow marks the 6-months-left-to-ORD day. exactly 6 months. okay, 1/2 a year - that sounds shorter. the next few months are gonna be excruciating and most ~~if not all~~ of my precious weekends are gonna be eaten up by ann-dee-pee shitz.

my colleagues, one by one, i bade them goodbye. it sucks to see them leave. they made work fun and we share many things in common. now that they're gone, i step into the office every day, and am forced to work with people who i hate.(alright, its easy for me to dislike someone, but thats not the point) i dont know how long more i can stand working in such an environment. you wanna play some office politics, be my guest.

iron man 2 and ice kacang this weekend! my friend says that when i bought the tickets for the latter show, it felt that we were in kopitiam. "ice kacang, for 2" hahahaha! okay that aside, both are worth watching.

things never got back to how they were, period.

2010-04-27T19:06:00.001+08:00

Naked
You lie, sated
head arched back
stubble makes shadows
pool on your neck
eyes closed, lips ajar
murmurs come up for air.

Gold autumn light makes blocks
on your stomach,
small round of skin there
you think it’s fat
it’s not, it’s still glistening
Ribbed by ribs,
a tired out accordion.

All squeezed.

Goosebumps dot you
in braille.

Naked
perfect
you doze in sleep.

I try to draw you
with charcoal
could only manage this
instead

somethingeveryday

2010-04-24T00:42:00.001+08:00

2010-04-17T23:41:00.005+08:00

whenever i'm bored online, hatepost never fails to entertain me. haha reading those posted rants, sometimes you cant help but to nod in agreement.

I hate it when you're talking to somebody, and they start texting someone else. I don't care if you say you can multitask, it's rude.

I hate it when a guy in front of you walks really slowly when you're in a rush. I wish i had a knife to stab you.

I hate it when people post ugly pictures of you on Facebook and don't delete it when you tell them to.

I hate getting up for school every morning...

see, i'm seeing your heads nodding in agreement. hahah. all of us have this innate ability to complain complain and complain, ~~especially when we're sgreans~~
________________________________________________________________________

i'm getting the mixed feelings again.
i wanna shake this off, but the more i try, the harder it is to dismiss it.

2010-04-11T17:05:00.005+08:00

我相信人之所以會傷心是為了要迎接快樂。這樣，只要當一樣能夠讓你開心的事發生時，你才會特別珍惜美好的時光，因為快樂是短暫的，傷心是永恆的，不是嗎?當你一直處在傷心的影子裡，你难免會變得很悲觀。我們都一直走在充滿壓力，競爭性的生活步伐。每天抱怨自己的生活為什麼沒比別人的精彩，為什麼會做出這樣的決定，為什麼當初會許下這樣的承諾，等。為他人而活，很累，不是嗎？不開心時，我喜歡花錢。不是對錢過意不去，只是每個人都有自己發洩的方式嘛。靠，這個星期我未免也花太多了吧。

周杰倫演唱會！！啊啊啊，最貴的票228元，但應該會值回票價。因為某種因素，我來不及買到SHE演唱會的票！現在銷售一空，簡直是爆滿到極點。我快要飆髒話了。而且她們在PS的簽唱會，又是個星期天傍晚。thank you ah.誰說是monday bluez, 对于阿兵哥来说，是sunday bluez！我想我和SHE的緣分，也只不過如此。

sometimes you have to take a step back, look at the bigger picture. you'll realise that there's nothing wrong at all! -M.

2010-04-03T00:10:00.004+08:00

stevie says i get free bracelets from doing this. tell me i need a bracelet. HAHAHA.

TAH-DAH!! support kay!

click the link below. just click. just click.

http://shophaus.livejournal.com/

personally, i like the silver ribbon necklace(item 3). the ring(item 5) make a good gift as well.

and oh oh, if you quote my name, you get a 5% discount! heh.

2010-03-31T22:34:00.002+08:00

i woke up at 6 am, skipped breakfast, went through a 2-hour meeting with a growling stomach, then seized the chance to munch on a cracker, skipped lunch cause i was running out of time, until 3.30 pm when i had the first proper meal of the day - buffet!! i was surprised time passed so quickly and i didnt whine about my empty stomach hahahaha

i love and hate buffets. its great that you can binge voraciously and vent all your frustrations on food, but the bad thing is, you over-eat, knowingly. and the feeling of over-eating is pretty uncomfortable. but if you dont order the sufficient number of plates, you're not making your pennies worth. hahah the ugly side of a typical singaporean revealed.

i should be sleeping now, gotta wake up at 5am the next morning. oh no!

i learnt a lot today, really.

离开你我安静的抽离....学会放弃。

2010-03-20T23:53:00.008+08:00

re-applied. submitted. paid. no more turning back. ahhhhhh.

i dont know whats holding me back.

anyway, let me show you some interesting things that my friend brought over from taiwan!

when i first saw them, i went - how can you place them together with food?!?!?!

i had my most-expensive-dinner-in-20-years-of-my-life on friday night at this atas restaurant, Prego. buffalo mozerella cheese, carbonara and cookies and cream cheese cake. when you're prepared to pay a lot for it, you just gave up trying to find the cheapest dish listed on the menu. hahaha.

just when i felt that i should stop spending extravagantly on food, i went for hi-tea session at Royal Copenhagen. but but, it was my friend's treat! hahaha thanks!

the food therapy did make me feel better. i wasnt exactly in my happiest mood these few ~~weeks~~ days. ~~dont ask me what happened.~~ so the best remedy is to eat! eat! eat! prior to Prego, i went to Al-Almeen to have roti prata, then Upp Bt Timah to have carrot cake and a bakery to have pies. *thinks about the calorie intake. but back in camp, i can skip breakfast and lunch, only surviving on a chicken burger for the whole day, until dinner, or only have breakfast and lunch and skip dinner. i hope my gastritis dont haunt me cause of my irregular eating patterns.

我好像站在無人山崖　全世界都拋在外

2010-03-15T09:27:00.002+08:00

This shall be my first time blogging with my mobile. Feels like i'm typing a really loooong sms here haha.
Tell me what i should do from now till 11. Nothing's opened at safra jurong yet. But of course i'd rather be here than in camp.
I'm sitting on a dunno-whats-the-name toy that makes me oscillate to and fro, hahaha, like what a playground has. Later i'm gonna sit on a huge plastic dog that hopefully can take my weight. Woohoo, self entertainment rocks. My dear friend is sleeping like a pig so i'm pretty much faced with nothing else but toys. Bwahahah. See, how uber bored i am now. And only 5minutes have passed, nooooo i still have 2hours to go!
Thank goodness there's wifi.

Giving up doesnt mean you're weak, sometimes it just means you're strong enough to let go - Anonymous.

2010-03-07T18:17:00.004+08:00

a year ago when i received my course, i was thinking if that was what i really wanted. but i knew i had a year to think of what i really wanted to study. and now, its been a year. its time i decided. argh, i hate to make ~~wrong~~ decisions.

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is it my browser or is my blog picture not loading? argh i have no time to change my skin. i've been using this skin since time began.

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i lied, again, like i always did.

撒了一个谎，就要用另一个谎来圆上一个，无形中就被卷入恶性循环。

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i'm gonna hate this upcoming uber looooong week. c'mon, 8 months. i want a break.

2010-03-04T07:29:00.000+08:00

我心中的呐喊，有谁听见
我心中的挣扎，有谁能体会
我心中的话，又有谁能了解？

2010-02-25T19:40:00.000+08:00

If I walk would you run

If I stop would you come

If I say youre the one would you believe me

If I ask you to stay would you show me the way...

2010-02-20T00:58:00.009+08:00

黑人和范范终于要结婚咯！我知道这不关我的事啦，但是很为他们感到开心！交往了10年，10年耶！我们一生中会有几个10年啊.

okay, thats mainly the reason why i posted this entry. haha.

CNY 2010! CNY feels different because 1. you get angpows just so that you can now afford to buy the iPhone(or whatever products) that you have been eyeing on for so long 2. you get to gorge yourself on all the bak kwa, pineapple tarts and worry about your weight another day 3. you have an excuse to buy & wear new clothes. my mom told me how CNY used to be a 'grand' event during her kampong days, but now? people are just relieved that they can enjoy the long CNY weekend ahead.

My cousin's kid(s)

they look scared. hahaha.

so cuteeee!

so handsome right!

hahahah. i love kids :P

do you know what to call your cousins' children? for my side, we just call Auntie / Uncle i.e. treating your cousin like your own brother/sister so their child becomes your niece / nephew. but actually, this child is actually your cousins once removed. yes, it doesnt sound nice haha. so technically, the handsome boy above is my first cousins once removed. and his future child would be my first cousins twice removed. and so on. i didnt know that until tonight la! hahaha i'm such a nubcake.

i watched Valentine's Day. its a sweet movie whereby you get the typical happily-ever-after ending. the cast is the main factor that draws people into paying $10 for it. its the type of show which belongs to the watch-with-your-girlfriend category. and oh, taylor swift is a total bimbo. but taylor lautner is a himbo, so it makes them a matching couple. nonetheless i still love her songs hahahah.

i'm coerced into going for a bbq gathering tomorrow but i dont feel like going! i hope the guy's not reading this but pasir ris park is uber f.a.r.

2010-02-13T20:51:00.000+08:00

Valentine's Day, Lunar New Year

Conflicting interests.

2010-02-10T19:57:00.002+08:00

A middle-aged couple had their Valentine's Dinner in a romantic restaurant. Throughout the meal, they rarely talk. When their vision paths crossed, they only smile at each other. Is it because they have been married for so long, they can already read each other's mind, or have they simply run out of topics?

2010-02-07T13:24:00.004+08:00

i'm typing this in the office right now. yes, COS, again, and it has to be on the last weekend before CNY, when the whole world is busy preparing for the new year - shopping, cleaning etc.

while i was shopping in the mall yesterday, i felt a sudden sharp pain in my left eye and it gave me a bad headache. there was even a point in time where i felt nauseous. the headache lasted quite long, like the period of time i spent walking from Ion G2000 to Esprit at Wisma. can someone tell me whats wrong?!?! i was pretty scared that i might collapse or go blind suddenly.

youtube's working on and off. just watched the first episode of 就想赖着你, it lacks the 'hooking' factor that attracts you to watching it, neither does it make you laugh your ass off like in 海派甜心, nor cry your lungs out in as in 下一站，幸福.

this is gonna be uber random. songminghan is gullible. just tell him that he has been activated and it'll send him rushing back to camp. try it, it works. hahahaha.

anyway, right now, there's a suspicious guy outside the office fixing the water cooler. this is weird, why would a repair man (if he is one) work on a Sunday?

i'm listening to 933 now, it's chen liyi's last 醉心龙虎榜. ahhhhhh, another DJ leaving 933.
雨爱No.1! yay!

i'm typing every random thought that comes to my mind cause blogging is a good way to kill time.

有時候，
我喜歡一個人獨處
寧靜的感覺，
因為寧靜，
讓我的內心感到平靜。
但是，
他們卻說這樣很孤僻，
孤僻。。。不好嗎?

2010-01-31T01:00:00.002+08:00

now i know why people lock their phones with a password. do you know how it feels when there's something in your phone which isnt meant for others to see but he/she discovered it cause you carelessly left your phone lying around? 'So Embarrassing!', quoting from the famous Aunty Lucy. and no, i dont keep sexually explicit images in my phone ~~unlike somebody else~~.

another incident which everyone is guilty of - you badmouthed someone and accidentally sent the message to that person, instead of the intended recipient. when that happened, i felt like banging my head against the wall and prayed hard that Singtel telcoms network shut down so that the message couldnt get through eventually. nope, prayers didnt come true this time round.

SCO cum 933 concert was great! thanks sihui for the tickets (:
thumbs up for the orchestral performance, and the skit was pretty entertaining. but it was disappointing that liang wen yin only sang one song! and she didnt interact with the orchestra. oh wells, but she's pretty. haha. so are peifen and jiahui.

its 0150am and i dont feel sleepy at all.

it's finally the last day of January. it felt like an interminable month.
9months left. woohoo!

you put a smile to my face (:

2010-01-22T23:08:00.000+08:00

反了？

是這世界在變，

還是

我們一直在變。

我試著倒著看這世界，

希望看到不一樣的世界，

然而

這世界並不會因為我倒著而改變，

只是久了，

我卻開始困惑，

搞不清楚，

是世界反了，還是我反了?

無糖綠圖文誌

极力推荐。

2010-01-13T20:07:00.000+08:00

:(((((((

Release me from incarceration

2010-01-03T13:30:00.008+08:00

First post in 2010! :D

i can still remember how i spent the millennium countdown (amazing memory huh!) and now we'va entered a new decade. 10 years. from a kiddish 10year old boy to a not-so-kiddish 20 year old. hahah.

2009 passed really quickly, but that's good cause i only have 10 months left! heh. 2009 wasnt exactly the most exciting year, since i spent 85% of the time serving the country. i'm just relieved that i'd entered a new phase in life. perhaps the most useful 2009 takeaway was - to deal with office politics and to never trust people easily.

some new year resolutions.

0. to wish that Nov 4 would come like its tomorrow.
1. to finish NS
2. to finish NS
3. to finish NS
4. oh did i say i want to get over and be done with NS?
5. learn a new language (this was supposed to be done after As.)
6. learn cantonese (so that i dont feel like a mute in hongkong and besides its my dialect!)
6. learn how to drive (or maybe next year. damn they removed poles on parking lots.)
7. perform lasik (if i have the money)
8. travel! (london, bangkok, taiwan, japan...another resolution which will never be fufilled unless i have the money)
9. have a windfall so that 7, 8, 9 can come true.
10. a new camera
11. iPod touch. iHate iPhone though.
12. a phone that has a CAMERA and wifi, of course.
13. laptop. (that's it, i'm done with desktop computers.)
14. a new room! (like a Groom My Room shit.)
15. to make up my bloody mind on the course i wanna take.
16. to be able to sleep like a pig ~~after i complete NS.~~
17. to be able to find a part time job that pays well ~~after i complete NS.~~
18. a wish for myself- (isnt that the usual practice for wish making?)
19. i think one is not enough, make it two :P

what a loooooong list. the flag of my rapacious disposition.

well, for one thing that's sure, resolution 1 will come true on Nov 3.

anyways, night cycling was exhausting but enjoyable!

黎明的天空總是最迷人。

2009-12-26T00:18:00.003+08:00

i dont know if you've seen this before. i was atonished when i came across this.

http://www.sgforums.com/forums/2080/topics/382961?page=1

ZOMG, spectacular. what a spectrum of colours!

despite the addition of so many lines and stations, i still fail to see an mrt station located at sungei gedong! what a godforsaken place indeed.

but is this really necessary? LTA should probably look into the development of more roads instead, since we're all gonna drive next time arent we? screw public transport. hahaha.

HAPPY BOXING DAY!:D

2009-12-25T00:09:00.001+08:00

MERRY XMAS TO ALL!!! :DDDDDD

2009-12-21T22:59:00.000+08:00

两个字，杜爛
四个字，超級杜爛
六个字，超級無敵杜爛

2009-12-19T23:46:00.002+08:00

So there's this incident which i felt embarrassed i had to put it off my chest.

Heard about Royce chocs? I was at the Ion(often misprounced as ee-on or eye-ong) outlet shopping for chocs. You feel elated after eating their chocs ~~despite burning a hole in your pocket~~ hahaha. There i was trying out the flavours that are available and one guy attended to me. I tried the first piece which has an 'au lait' flavour. Obviously i had to make out what it contains, who da hell knows what 'au lait' means right. The shop attendant then asked 'so how do you find the first piece that you've tried....(blah blah)? And since i was so engrossed in tasting that piece of choc just so to find out what it contains, i replied perfunctorily and in a super sg tone, 'uh, okay only lor'. Then i heard giggles from mervyn. Oh gosh, totally not the most appropriate comment to give in a shop with classy settings. hahahha. I felt like that guy gave me a 'you're-sucha-nubcake' look.

LOL. But then again, what else can i say right? 'Oh, its gastronomic! The taste of cocoa livened up my taste buds as if they started to dance on my tongue. I felt like i was on cloud nine." Haha no right?

I typed out the whole chunk of shit just to justify that any mother's son wouldnt have been able to provide a suitable reply hence the embarrassement was inevitable. Morale of the story - bloody expand the range of my vocabulary!

Another amusing incident that happened when i was..primary 5.

Heard of 白痴造句？yes i am a victim of that. haha. i remembered i was given a 完成句子exercise to complete. if you have forgotten, it is one where you have to complete the sentence when only the first or the last phrase was given to you. one of the questions was as such

与其到处闲逛, _________________.

what would you write? my answer was...

还看了一场电影！

essentially, the whole sentence became 与其到处闲逛，还看了一场电影！

obviously, it is wrong. when there is 与其, you have to continue the sentence with 不如. Its like a pair of connectors in a sentence...for instance 'Just as...., so.....' but i took 与其 as the name of a girl! hahaha. so it means this girl, by the name of Yuqi, not only window-shopped, but also caught a movie!

......

if we could have names like 小丽 or 小明, why cant we have 与其??? sounds nice mah, no meh?

......

please dont roll your eyes at me. hahahhaa.

officially missing you

2009-12-18T22:19:00.003+08:00

i'm so highhhhh and happieeeeee now!!!

:DDDDDDDD

dont ask why.

anyways, wooooohooooo! my holidays are finally here! wahahahha. indeed this is a long awaited break after working my lungs out every day for the past weeks. now i know how kids feel when their holidays come (i never experienced such joy when i was still a schoolboy). the next time i step into bloody gedong is next year! heh.

so much for sharing my ecstacy.

my branch finally went to Sentosa for cohesion. its been donkey years since i stepped foot on that island. i cant even remember who i last went sentosa with. lol. today was by far one of the best cohesions i've had with the branch, probably because someone was absent. muahaha i'm vicious.

let me share something about my branch. it is the most bitchy, scandalous and united branch in the battalion. you must be thinking - getting scandalous in the army?! no we're not talking about homosexual relationships here. there's a female in my branch, who, i quote, ~~throws herself at ____.~~ oops, i didnt just say that, my friend did. heh. so u know whom the scandals originate from. bitchy because all of us like to 'discuss' about others, yes one group of bitchy green aliens, that includes my boss hahahha. and united because we all have a common enemy, or rather we have many common enemies. i wonder if office life in the outside world is similar to what i'm experiencing now. haha that'd be fun working in an office.

anw back to cohesion. you should try out the luge and skyride if you havent. if u dont know whats that, google it. i was *coughs* afraid of heights *coughs* when i went up the slope initially but after i saw so many human beings around me i was more or less comforted hahhaha. and damnit i didnt bring a camera for the scenery was fantabulous, except for the pollution coming out from an incineration plant nearby.

i shall end my post abruptly for i am exhausted after playing under the hot sun the whole afternoon. no pictures yet cause boss has yet to upload them on fb. ciao!

2009-12-06T17:16:00.003+08:00

After this week, there would be no more office work to be done i.e. PANG KANG!!! i cant wait! And i'd be on leave during the last 2 weeks of this month, double yayness!!

my tutee wants me to teach him physics. ^&$%#$#%&%^ good luck to ~~him~~ myself. well and if he gives me the 'huh??' face, i probably would say "aiyah, its a natural phenonmenon" LOL, inside joke.

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
and now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
Nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon its again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

-I'm Yours (:

2009-11-22T19:13:00.003+08:00

I HAVE NOTHING TO BLOG ABOUT. HAHAHA

this post is just to show that i'm still alive and kicking.

lets just countdown to ~~block leave~~ xmas. hohoho

ciao.

2009-11-09T11:12:00.002+08:00

in my previous post, i forgot to add that i only have exactly one more year with the SAF!! bwahahaha.

1 year = 12 months = 365 days = 8760 hours = 525600 mintues = 31536000 seconds.

y'know what, its better i keep it at just ONE year, period.

2009-11-07T16:26:00.005+08:00

i roused from my slumber, opened the door of my motel room and a rainbow greeted me at the doorstep (:

what a great way to start a day (:

the last 3 weeks werent exactly the best weeks of my life, but its a new experience. you dont get proper facilities; just imagine shitting into a hole deep down undergound (u dont know whats down there, and u definitely dont wanna slip and fall into it), filling pails of water to fill your water bag so that u can have a quick shower (u hope that there is still hot water left for its damn cold at night) and fighting the occasional sandstorms when the wind gets a little too strong (i have no idea how much sand i've inhaled). the only thing one looks forward to is the occasional canteen break (the canteen is 2 kilometres away) when you get ripped off willingly by the locals who set up a shop there. a hotdog bun and choc milk for SGD 9, anyone?

the town of Rockhampton is like another Bukit Batok/Woodlands/Tampines, aiyah, its a small place lah. just imagine yourself stuck in Bukit Batok for the rest of your life, u have everything u need i.e. ONE university, ONE cinema, TWO established shopping centres, but nothing more than that. Brisbane, say our Orchard, probably the nearest city, is 780km away. i guess they're way of life is very different from Singaporeans.

yuliang and i explored half the town while everyone else cooped themselves up in the shopping centre. 'lets do without the map and get lost, its fun', unfortunately this never became an issue cause the area is so small and the roads are so clear cut, u're a faggot if u still lose your way. the only few interesting things we found are the adult toy shop and a house that reared horses in the backyard. apart from that, we were complaining about the lack of things to see and the sweltering weather. haha.

what else can we do? shopping. as typical singaporeans, we only get the best of the best deals. the clothes are so cheap, you feel sorry not buying them. the locals must be elated to see us, 1.i dont suppose they have tourists, so we army guys helped contribute to their economy 2.we helped them clear stock, especially those clothes of small sizes (angmohs usually cant fit in them). in this shopping centre, they have 4 hypermarts and they sell everything, really. i love 'em all, especially the candies section, its like paradise. hahah. plus the cashiers are friendly and polite! unlike typical NTUC cashiers who only says 'Member?', the aussie cashiers engage with you slightly more.

the only regret is that i didnt bring my camera. if not i couldve shown u my living conditions, as well as the little bit of the town.

all in all, i'm happy to be back home! :D

如果我把我的手放在背后
愿不愿意牵著一起走

2009-10-19T23:20:00.004+08:00

this is it. i'm leaving. no facebook, no hongkong drama, no newspaper, just my rifle and my buddy and meeeee...... wish me all the best. hehe.

and of couse i dont just live on facebook, hongkong dramas and newspapers.

我踏入地图上

一片消失的沙漠中，

我失去了名字，
失去了身份，

也失去了记忆。

地球不停地转啊转，

转啊转
转啊转

转啊转~

我究竟是在何时

脱离了地心引力，

消失在地图上呢？

2009-10-19T00:13:00.013+08:00

i'm a straightforward person so i tend to say things that hurt/affect people. thats unintentional of course. that just happened again; i think i said something to my mom that made her rather upset. when i re-evaluate the whole situation from a mother's perspective, i'd be so darn disappointed with my child. words blurt out my mouth faster than my brain could process ~~and censor~~ them. so i rarely tell people to 'think before u say', because i never preach this.

when i get all agaitated and worked up, ~~which i usually do,~~ i become very unfriendly to everyone else who happen to cross my path. i cant understand why certain people can suppress their rage so well. if u're angry, u're angry la! some of my closer friends mightve experienced 'my-pattern', so i apologise. but that doesnt mean i'll change. hahaha. ok i'm sucha jerk.

that aside, i had a great time with my JC peeps on Sat. minghan brought camwhoring to a new dimension using a DSLR camera. i can tell he's really into photography, cause he even contemplated bringing a tripod out, (i'll never do that), so i assume he will go into the photographic profession. now u know who to look for to take your wedding pictures hahaha

Reuben James is super filling. i dont suppose thats the name of the pig that died to fill our stomachs.

cheese macaroni is h.e.a.v.e.n.l.y.

eh boy, what looking u?melissa.

laimeng. i didnt post unglam pics of u! hahaha

i'm a happy girl, in a happy worrrrrllld (:

i'm a happier girl, in a happier worrrrrllld (:

minghan's attaining enlightenment.

buddha jumps over the.....?

last but not least....

I DONT WANNA GO AUSTRALIA!!! hahahaha

2009-10-16T19:30:00.002+08:00

i shall enjoy this long weekend before i go to hell. literally, go.to.hell. hahaha. i've heard many ~~negative~~ stories about the place i'm going to. hence i'm a stauch proponent of this cliche - igonorance is bliss. seriously, i'd rather be 'surprised' on the day i reach there than go there with a what-to-expect mentality. haha. its okay, perhaps i'll just treat it like another tekong confinement, just that its longer than 2 weeks, without proper sanitation and washing facilities, plus i get to eat sand and houseflies for my meals. woots.

supper gathering later, eggciting!

thats all for now folks, ciao! (:

2009-10-04T14:51:00.007+08:00

i hate packing.

every sunday, i'm reluctant to packing my belongings cause that shows that i have to return to camp. now i loathe packing for my trip, cause i dont wanna go! haha enough whining about the imminent trip, i'm quite worried if i had accidentally forgotten to bring the essential items. you know the feeling when you know that there's something back in your mind yet you just cant seem remember what that is. yea thats it.

yesterday was Mid-Autumn Festival. i realise i dont love mooncakes as much as before but i still ate a lot. haha one double egg yolk mooncake has 890 calories. zomg i refuse to calculate how much calories i have had this weekend. hahaha.

叶子的离开，是风的追求，还是树的不挽留？

2009-09-27T17:35:00.002+08:00

i so dont wanna go australia!! do i look like i have a choice? the answer is obvious. i'm gonna leave in 2-3 weeks' time, so friends, meet up before i leave ok!

once i return to singapore, i will only have 1 year left to serve! yay time to make after-NS plans wahahaha.

i feel like i'm twittering, not blogging, cause my posts are always so short and sweet. well i spare y'all the trouble of reading huge chunks of boring shit.

2009-09-17T23:19:00.002+08:00

its time you cracked your brains and solved a math question.

9x - 7i > 3(3x - 7 u)

Simplify the above such that 'i' becomes the subject of this inequality.

p.s. its a message that i've been wanting to tell u :P

2009-09-16T23:09:00.006+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MYSELF :D

officially 19years old. i still belong to the 'one-something' club!

thanks to all who wished me a happy birthday! like the usual practice, i'll name all of you.

wei ji, zhi jue, kang rui, regina, jasmine, vanessa, mervyn, jia hui, minghan, shu wei, stevie, joyce, s3 boss, lihui, zalmund, er jie, melissa, si hui, wanqing, lai meng, sharon, kah hwee, timothy, claire, shu ning, shangfei, eddee, lizhen, benhong, martin, euodia, simin, eugenia and my dear family (:

thank you for assuring me that i have not been forgotten even though ive been absorbed into the army. hahaha

my wish is.................

i wont tell u :P

2009-09-13T17:54:00.003+08:00

yay! so looking forward to next week. super duper long weekend. heh heh

i have nothing much to blog about. the mundane daily routine just goes on and on and on......

screw flooble chatterbox. the tagboard always dies.

my cute newphew just asked me if i have a girlfriend.
i said no.
then he asked why?
i didnt reply.
is it because you dont want a gf?
i gave a perfunctory remark - yah (as if, haha)
orh, or is it because you shy? you know arh, my friend got gf already leh!
mind you, he's only 6 years old, talking about relationships.
milk powder must be the culprit of their early maturation. haha

2009-08-28T22:17:00.004+08:00

i attend 2 funerals consecutively in a period of 2 days.

my friend didnt make it on time to see his father for the last time. he has so much to tell his dad, but there is no chance anymore. i hate to bid goodbyes. has it ever occurred to you a goodbye could possibly mean that you will not meet this person ever again?

活在此刻，活在当下。过去无法挽回，未来无法掌控，会发生的终究会发生。与其顾虑，不如把握现有的每分每秒。

life is fragile and short. why are people obsessed with the tangibles? is a job promotion of great importance? is the entitlement to using luxury a necessity? or do you think it is actually happiness that makes life priceless?

perhaps the army is a good representation of self-centred individuals who are so obsessed with personal goals that they jeopardize happiness. but they just dont give a damn.

the past weeks hasnt been good for me.

my com crashed. so now i have no other options but to operate on this 123456789 years old computer, apparently still running on windows XP and takes a minute or two to open an application. hate those viruses.

2009-08-19T23:28:00.001+08:00

incompetent superiors.

lackadaisical peers and colleagues.

sleepless nights.

is the army a true reflection of the working society?

2009-08-10T16:39:00.002+08:00

booking in tonight urghhhhhh! this feels so much worse than attending school. plus there's outfield this week and its bloody hell going to cut into my weekend. gonna be an exhausting and loooong week again.

i wasted part of my weekend cause of fever.

i watched UP! no it wasnt in 3D, disappointing. haha. dont you find 3D effects fascinating? anyways the boy, Russell, is so cuteee! i wish i could own a floating house so i can travel from place to place without a passport. but then again my motion sickness would probably make me throw up everywhere even before i reach my destination. hahahha.

uni's starting its new semester tomorrow. my turn to attend school will be exactly 2 years from now. 2 years. 2 years.

2009-07-28T19:47:00.003+08:00

so many friends are either in freshmen orientation camps now or have already been to a couple of them already. they seemed to have enjoyed themselves very much. i cant wait to go uni! well actually i'm in a camp too, but its an army camp. hahahah.

i've a ticket to Pan Wei Bo's new album showcase at St James this saturday. but i cant make it. anyone wants the ticket?

2009-07-19T17:49:00.002+08:00

YAY! New playlist! Ever since Imeem allowed users to play only 30sec of a song, i think the whole world changed to using MixPod.

i wanna own an iPod Touch! but its quite expensive given my mediocre monthly pay. there's a refurbished version which is $60 cheaper, but i always have my doubts on second hand products. perhaps owning this virtual ipod touch on my blog can satisfy my greed for the moment hahaha.

after many many weekends, i finally finished 败犬女王. its a nice drama with a theme that is slightly different from others, though certain parts of the show were a bit too unrealistic. but what i like most are the songs in the drama. 梁静茹果然是情歌天后。

one week is gone. cheers (:

the new week is starting. sulks :/

2009-07-04T20:38:00.001+08:00

to my dear friend who has h1n1

TAKE CARE, GET WELL SOON WOMAN (:

2009-07-04T10:50:00.005+08:00

once again, rotting in the office on a sweltering hot saturday afternoon. thank goodness there's air conditioning.

what?! i cant access Bejeweled on Facebook?! this is disappointing. anyways, i find this ridiculously amusing:

There was a major fire at Bejeweled Blitz's server hosting facility last night. We would like to say that the heat of everybody's gem swapping burned up the servers, but unfortunately in this case it was an actual fire."
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i chanced upon this video.

http://www.cultureunplugged.com/play/1081/Chicken-a

its worth watching. though i feel that the video couldve been more impactful if it were based in africa.

waste your food, so that impoverished kids can have your leftovers. well, would this be happening if we finish up everything we order?

disregard the above cynical comment.

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There is only one sin, only one. And that is theft. Every other sin is a variation of theft… When you kill a man, you steal a life. You steal his wife’s right to a husband, rob his children of a father. When you tell a lie, you steal someone’s right to the truth. When you cheat, you steal the right to fairness. -Kite Runner

i heart this book.
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2009-06-28T17:29:00.002+08:00

remember where you keep your things cause you really wont know when you need them.

i cannot find my DVD!!!

this is not the first time i misplace my things. i'm getting senile.

now that the june holiday has ended, everyone returns to school with a heavy heart. i totally know how that feels like. hahaha.

but.....half a year's over, yay!

okay you should realise that i've ran out of things to blog about, like i always do, haha, especially so when my mind's disturbed by my misplaced DVD. i havent finished watching the show you know!

replies to tag

grace: i'd rather go for CTs. hahaha. i thought it is enrichment week after june holidays? anw jiayou for CTs!! =D

shuning: yea, strange indeed. haha. but we all move on (: have fun in uni orientation, if u've signed up for any! (:

2009-06-15T17:24:00.007+08:00

i returned to school. would that possibly be the last time i step into NJ?

i went around taking pictures of the school and am surprised to find out that the decorations on our class noticeboard is still untouched!!

LOST4 @ TA12!

it has been converted to a class for sec1 kids. i hate it that they changed the furniture. i never like round tables. but look, the chairs are nicely stacked! i dont even push in my chair after tutorials. haha.

damnit they locked up the LTs and classrooms. i could only take pictures from outside.

Classroom Block. GP's on level 3, Math and Chem's on level 2, Econs on level 1

there is also a new container classroom block called TD, like we have TA, TB, TC classrooms. bet those temporary classrooms are meant for JC students and TA, TB, TC are allocated for those precious sec1 gems.

LT5 - chem phy lectures. cushion seats for us to fall asleep faster, easier and comfortably (:

LT1 - math lectures. the chairs are always spoilt.

the loooooooong walk to the bus stop from main gate. dont miss the side gate opening hours. haha.

thaaaat night....... :D

i so wanna go back to school and be a student again!

enough of reminiscing the past. back to reality in a few hours time.

让回忆储存在脑海里，偶尔拿出与朋友分享，别有一番乐趣。就像美酒收藏久了，偶尔拿来品尝，也是人生的一种享受。

2009-06-14T00:31:00.019+08:00

Picnic @ Marina Barrage!

i havent been to marina barrage, so i expected we'd have a typical picnic where we sit on the grass, hide ourselves below a tree, enjoy the scenery, listen to birds chirping melodiously ~~and complaining that the weather's frigging hot nowadays~~. but to my delight we settled at a tent along a bridge! haha. so we had nice shelter, solid concete ground.

everyone was supposed to bring something edible, and so we did, except for engkwan who bought his iPod dock. u cant eat that do u? but that did provide pleasant entertainment.

laimeng - mayo crabmeat

sharon - sandwich

hanxie - drinks and cups. smart of you to bring the latter.
minghan - shao rou and cucumber
melissa - short hotdogs
me - long hotdogs and fish nuggets

we forgot forks and spoons.

camwhore.

laimeng says the shaven spastic looks like a monk. look, the monk's begging for money! so he walked along the bridge with the iPod dock and money-collecting cup. i wonder what made him wanna parade himself like that. kudos to u.....hahhaha.

marina bay has always been a popular spot for kite-flying. 7 JC students thought it'd be easy to fly a kite......

1st attempt

2nd attempt

XXXth attempt

i guess we probably forgot to incorporate physics laws into kite-flying. perhaps some calculations could have made our attempts succeed.

the stubborn kite looked like it had metal chains secured onto it. then one uncle told us that this kite is actually different from normal ones. we bought a 'stunt kite'(like wtf?!) which requires strong winds to fly, due to its ability to perform stunts such as turning 360degrees mid air........*yawns.

alright to put it simply, we bought the 'wrong' kite.

hence we bought another kite, which didnt appear to be a 'stunt kite'. so we began trying again.

it was still to no avail.

packed up and prepared to leave. then suddenly strong winds came. took out the kite again. tried. the kite flew! cheers!

seconds later the string snapped -.- dont you just feel like swearing? hahahha.

the poor kite landed in the pool of water, drowned. haha.

i probably wont fly a kite for some time.

meet up again guys! :D

replies to tag

stevie - yes so next time whenever u see chinese words hovering around this page u know i'm sad. do you know where to get those online countdown timers? i totally want that. haha.

vanessa - i'll try to feel proud (:

this post took me hours.

2009-06-03T23:55:00.004+08:00

I ran 20km this week.

I'm tired.

Have u ever wished that u had more than one pair of hands and ears? Have u ever wished that u could clone yourself so that you could be at 2 different places at an instant?

I'm frustrated.

coupled with the fact that i am going to take IPPT, and have to pass it by hook or by crook, though i did not have adequate rest

I'm even more stressed.

Despite being in an airconitioned environment, i still have mosquito bites. maybe i shouldnt have disregarded my insect repellant. just two days without the repellant and i have 7 bites on both of my hands. Insect repellant rocks my green socks man.

I am highly annoyed and irritated.

what a post man, seriously.

(:

2009-05-31T19:57:00.004+08:00

我曾经错失过几次机会呢？没把握好，怨不得人。如果时间能够倒流，我也许会更坚持。因为自己没自信，所以最终放弃。我会怀念以前的日子，一切的回忆。所以当机会来临时，就要把握，不要让它白白流失。

幼苗的生长需要充分的阳光、水。人则需要回忆、教诲使我们长大。18年的回忆的确教会了我不少。

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又是另一个星期了。每当要回到‘那里’时，心总是鼓起莫名的焦虑，仿佛接下来的一个星期会发生什么大件事。我不喜欢这种感觉。
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this is the my year without any june/dec vacation. damn, when can i go back to becoming a student.

2009-05-27T07:38:00.002+08:00

rotting in the office now, it really gets quite boring at times. haha.

its just me, the computer and the radio.

2009-05-25T15:40:00.007+08:00

the long weekend's over. sad! time spent outside always passes super quickly, time spent in camp never fails to seem like eternity. but i did have a good weekend (: but this enjoyment has a huge price to pay - i spent hundreds of dollars this weekend. i need to exercise discretion.

yesterday was jieyan's 21st birthday @ Aranda Country Club.

my turn will come 2 years later. haha seriously i cant wait. by then i'd be a year 1 university student, not some army kid anymore!! hehe. should i book a chalet for my celebrations too?

p.s. i'm the only <>it has now become a family 'tradition' to give wallets on birthdays. alright, more like we had no inkling what to purchase.

welcome to the 21 and above club (:

what?! the next public holiday is national day?! thats 3 months from now. ahhhhhh. so as i've mentioned, students have the best life. they have loooong holidays in june and nov/dec. so stop complaining that it sucks to be a student. to be frank, it sucks even more after you graduated (:

2009-05-20T21:27:00.003+08:00

remember last time i complained that i needed a break?

yes, i'm finally gonna enjoy a long weekend, a fruitful one. lets see....movie, mahjong, night cycling, celebrating my cousin's 21st bdae and the i-weekly concert(hopefully someone accompanies me to it)! thinking of these puts a smile to my face, especially when the week had been so packed.

there's a parade later and i frigging dont know my drills. damn i'm screwed.

sometimes i like being alone, just like now. u give yourself time to settle your thoughts, reflect on what you've done wrong. to put it in a cliche manner, that is, to think about life. what is life? isnt life meaningless cause everyone dies eventually? so isnt it like - you live to die?

Am i making sense?

2009-05-17T00:27:00.002+08:00

busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy busy

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh

coupled with the lack of sleep, i'm pretty much going insane.

duties, appointments, course, office work and so much other things to worry about.

i need a break.

都市人过着节奏快，压力大的生活，
凡是讲究效率与成绩。
难道就不能放缓脚步，
慢慢的享受生活？

btw

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MERVYN :D

you know i wouldnt be able to blog on the actual day.

2009-05-03T16:05:00.002+08:00

well its been another week.

1.5years to go. well isnt it a little too early to start the countdown now?

congrats to my cousin who had just ORD-ed. flying to bali, celebrating his 21st birthday at aranda - he sure knows how to enjoy life ~~after NS~~.

uh, birthdays. time to buy gifts. speaking of which i still people presents. whats the significance of giving gifts to birthday boys/girls? isnt it just another excuse to fufil our material needs without burning a hole in your own pocket? having said that, it doesnt mean that i disapprove the practice of giving during birthdays.

aiyah, nothing to blog about liao lah.

ciao.

2009-04-19T20:12:00.002+08:00

i cant believe i have sat here, in the office, for the past 12 hours already. another 12 hours to go......

say hi to the new week! :D

2009-04-19T15:39:00.004+08:00

i'm dying of boredom. this computer disallows me to watch youtube, youku, tudou, myspacetv, veoh and many many other video streaming sites. you name it, i have it. i shouldve brought my vcds along!

sunday's gone just like that. i'm looking forward to next weekend, but monday hasnt even started! i'm looking forward to labour day, but this weekend hasnt even passed! okay, i do sound a little crazy.

anyway, the results of my personality test. i'd say its 80% true.

Your view on yourself: Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates (really?!).

Your views on education: Education is less important than the real world out there, away from the classroom. Deep inside you want to start working, earning money(this is so true) and living on your own.

The right job for you: You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success: Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

try it! http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx
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i wanna give tuition (to earn more, obviously), but with all these weekend duties and occasional confinements, how am i going to commit myself??

2009-04-18T20:22:00.003+08:00

one of the must-dos during weekends is to blog hop. reading blog after blog, be it whether u know the writer or not. regardless, there is one common issue i spot among various blogs - the reluctance to attend school.

common phrases like 'sian, there is sch tomorrow' or 'i hate exams' are ubiquitous in blogs. i admit i'm one of those who complained about school too. haha.

now that i am no longer a student, i miss school life. (i have never once imagined myself writing this when i was a student, laughs sardonically). if given an option to study or serve NS during this 2 year period, my choice is obvious.

i miss talking cock with friends in the canteen
i miss attending CCA
i miss camwhoring in school
i miss the daily routine of attending lessons and lectures (and sleep during physics class)
and the list goes on......

i wanna go back to school! all i do now is sit here and reminisce.

i'm looking forward to becoming a student 2 years later. but thats a long period, in fact an interminable one.

on the brighter side, NS has ~~forced~~ made me cultivate the habit of reading. my last book was erm....my sec2 literature book? haha! theres too much time at night, and since i'm devoid of all other forms of entertainment, reading is certainly the way to kill time.

screw it, i have COS tomorrow. i'm not a sergeant, why do i then have to serve COS?! frivolous as it seems, this is NS. like what everyone says, just suck it up. sunday's gone. treasure your weekends.

to my many friends who are in tekong now, bleah! i've cleared 3.5 months wahahaha.

replies to tag

ED - plenty. i'm unlike you lucky fated souls who get to book out DAILY and still wants to chao geng a week of MC hahahah

VANESSA - ello! guess who's turning 19 soon. hehehe :D

ciao.

2009-04-08T20:21:00.002+08:00

first nights out yay! it feels damn good to be at home on a weekday night. hahah =D

okay i dont have much time left. gotta go. booking out tml for good friday!

2009-03-22T22:57:00.003+08:00

i'll keep this a really short one.

end of block leave. how fast. i would never get to enjoy such a long break until nov next year.

kinda worried for my new posting. i have the faintest idea what i'm expected to do.

hope all goes well, really.

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不要当‘第一’，因为‘第一’容易被他人取代。
要当‘唯一’，因为只有‘唯一’才是永恒的。

2009-03-20T00:20:00.004+08:00

what you see in the background is neither a work of art, nor the result of a creative collage.

WTF HAPPENED TO MY BLOGSKIN?!

first, i need to clarify that the background image is not owned by me but whoever who created this blogskin. so this user exceeded his/her usage so photobucket shut down this background picture.

and i'm pissed.

photobucket should be more magnanimous at setting their storage limit.

problem solved, period.

posting will be made known later. feels like another getting-result-day.

2009-03-18T11:21:00.002+08:00

its time i blogged.

exactly one week ago i was walking the 24km and now, block leave is coming to an end real soooon. noooooo. this would be the one and only long holiday i get to enjoy for the next 2 years.

BMT wasn't really that bad after all. i had a nice company, great platoon, nice sergeants. (okay my vocabulary is really limited) and no i did not encounter any ghostly experiences even though it was rumoured that my platoon's level is the most haunted area. nor did i get eaten up by wild boars. well to those who are waiting to be enlisted, good luck. my time's over. HEH.

people around me have more or less decided on what to study in uni. i still cant make up my mind.

business - easy to secure a job. but the course seems boring. i dont wanna end up with that oh-i-took-the-wrong-course feeling, just like i shouldn'tve taken physics in JC. history does repeat itself.
mass comm - job prospects? i dont wanna write news articles.
FASS - would anyone hire someone with a Bachelor of Social Sci?

damn.

anyways, i'm addicted to word challenge on facebook! haha

2009-03-08T19:27:00.002+08:00

cant wait for wed, seriously.

the old tagboard closed down cause it was inactive for too long. so people, you know what to do (:

2009-03-01T13:36:00.002+08:00

this is gonna be random but.....

i saw a shooting star 2 nights ago!!

so there's this ball of light that flashed through the sky. being a noob shit, i thought it was just another plane. then my friend was like....plane got so fast one meh?

i quickly made my wishes =D

results will be released this friday, i suppose? so it's gonna be a four day week cause we can book out to take results! p.s. i'm elated cause i get to book out, not because i'm eager to find out how i did for A's. nothing beats more than being able to get the ~~fuck~~ out of that island.

POPping out in 1.5 weeks' time!!